Sunday, 22 June 2008

Coming back but feeling different

Yesterday I went to a community bazaar and caught up with a lot of the old circle of sisters, mash Allah lovely sisters. I did note that life has remained the same.

I was speaking to sister S about my own spiritual development after hijrah I realized soon after being in Algeria alone for so long and only depending upon my lord for my daily nourishment of faith and battling shatan every step of the way, my faith entered another level Alhamdulillah, a new spiritual high that can only be attained after hardship and dependence upon Allah. I feel looking back on my life in the UK it is a life of dependence upon society and materialism, before you all start, I am talking about my own experience and things the way I felt them. We have this net work of sisters and weekly halaqh's, events we are involved in, things that’s are good, of course they are but soon we take on more and more, the DH is out of the home almost 24/7, kids are in bed before he gets in and sometimes gone off for the day before he gets up, having to make appointments to see his own kids. The sisterhood is great in the UK mash Allah very diverse but as I came to learn a very superficial one, not all some as there are so many wonderful sisters out there and who really do care. We live in this self created Islamic bubble we create for ourselves in the UK, the choices, materialism and access hinders our real relationship with our lord, we are missing tranquility, our hearts are diseases with love for comfort. I often remind myself ''if I don't have hardships, how will I come closer to Allah?'
I was talking to a sister and she was telling me she was so stressed, with the daily grind and life. I asked her if she had food on her table, she said yes, did her roof leak water. She said no, is her health in tack? She said yes. I them told her so what is the stress that is making you so ill? She told me her job, her routine and her wealth, so basically her blessings subhan Allah. I advised her is an illusion of the word stress, put the same energy into your salat and dikr, reaffirm your faith and correct you salat and wudu. I don't know if you can relate to what I am saying but we are all caught up in this in gratitude, when was the last time we thanked our lord , do we do it as often as we moan? We need to self look within ourselves and return to the basics to have faith cost nothing, to have emaan cost nothing to maintain it cost scarifies. Allah guide us all ameen.


seekingtaqwa said...

Masha'allah a really thought provoking post and I have to say that I agree with you about the fact that we as Muslim women in the west tend to overcompensate and we fill our lives so much (with even islamic activities) that there is little time left to actually sit quietly and just forge your relationship with allah ta' nurture it and figure out who you are and how you are progressing....

Rainbow In The Grey Sky said...

seeking taqwa you have hit the nail on the head this is what iwanted to say but couldn't get the words out. more later as cookings calling.hugs.

Umm Ibrahim said...

Assalaamu alaikum,

Very thought provoking especially the part about the fact that it is often our blessings which stress us - subhan Allah, I think you are right!

Quiet time, time for reflection is much needed and at a premium.

://: Heni ://: said...


Living here in Algeria, I feel myself very far from my faith. It seems to be all about the family and tradition here (which is nice don't get me wrong) but faith wise I am down. I need always to take a moment to remember Allah and my relationship with HIM. But I find it harder and harder.

Rainbow In The Grey Sky said...

Thats really scary Henia allah Al Must'aan!

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