life not so smooth at the momenta

Life at home has been far from a bed of roses but then again when is it ever meant to be smooth non stop? Rather than go into details and tell you all my personal problems, I am going to focus on the emotions. I feel sadness because others are making me sad, I want to cry and cry and realise some of the sadness but the eyes remain dry. I am unsupported and made to feel worthless by the very ones I gave my love too and natured with kindness. I am blamed for their hard times and hardships. I feel like its give me give me give me, who is looking out for me? I hate to be stuck in this rut, surely there is more to life in a family unit, surely there is more to it than pain? Dark times bring dark emotions , I hope things will get better soon inshaAllah.
and this is just a passing phases as close relationships in close space feel strain from time to time too.