Missing The Past

owww it hurts I don't know why but I find this time of year I get extremly home sick subhan Allah. Its places , thoughts, smells,foods, and feelings that spring to mind, throughtout the day images appear in my mind to torment me of a place a memory. Then i know this is home sickness for sure , suddenly nothing tastes good here, everything becomes a chore, i can't be bothered , i battle with my emtions to remind myself , that life is now past and i need to find new comforts , new memories , new smells, new feelings here , for now i recall only pain. Not to say there have no been happy times , there have but the pain dominates my memories here so far. so I am kinda moping around just putting on a smile for others , dont want to spread my gloom to all esp the kids, making the effort for the sake of Allah knowing

WITH HARDSHIP COMES EASEAnd, behold, with every hardship comes ease. Verily, with every hardship comes ease! Hence, when thou art freed [from distress], remain steadfast, and to thy Lord turn (all) thy attention.Holy Quran, Chapter 94, Verses 5-8

and belive me this is true as alhamduilah in the past i have exiperenced the effects of this ayat (verse), its only we loose hope!

I went to visit my sister who was crying

I mangage to get out to see the sister who has been crying for 2.5yrs now, isolated and lonely in her shell. Almost abandoned , the visit i felt was a great sucess for all , another sister Emma (not real name), went with me , who herself has and is suffering. Why are the sisters suffering so much in Algeria? There is no support in place and Algeria can be a pretty lonely place esp for the ex pat community , who have a different culture and no family support, often no friends. The emman subsides and that opens a way for shatan to have a ever tightening hold on the person. Lonelyness is a state of illness, that hurts. Ever felt your surrounded by so many people but your still lonely? your emman is still low? We all need encouragement and good role models esp when we feel we are no more....................