Friday, 8 February 2008

Missing The Past

owww it hurts I don't know why but I find this time of year I get extremly home sick subhan Allah. Its places , thoughts, smells,foods, and feelings that spring to mind, throughtout the day images appear in my mind to torment me of a place a memory. Then i know this is home sickness for sure , suddenly nothing tastes good here, everything becomes a chore, i can't be bothered , i battle with my emtions to remind myself , that life is now past and i need to find new comforts , new memories , new smells, new feelings here , for now i recall only pain. Not to say there have no been happy times , there have but the pain dominates my memories here so far. so I am kinda moping around just putting on a smile for others , dont want to spread my gloom to all esp the kids, making the effort for the sake of Allah knowing
WITH HARDSHIP COMES EASEAnd, behold, with every hardship comes ease. Verily, with every hardship comes ease! Hence, when thou art freed [from distress], remain steadfast, and to thy Lord turn (all) thy attention.Holy Quran, Chapter 94, Verses 5-8
homesick
and belive me this is true as alhamduilah in the past i have exiperenced the effects of this ayat (verse), its only we loose hope!

8 comments:

Jamila said...

Essalam Alaikum, Sis, I was reading you last few posts, and Subhan'Allah I feel for you. I'm sorry you are not happy in Algeria, I pray that Allah makes it easier for you and brings satisfaction to you heart and peace to your mind.

I will be moving to Algeria shortly Insha'Allah. I ask Allah to let us meet and make us good friends.

Rainbow In The Grey Sky said...

walakum aslam jamila jazakAllahu khyrun and for all your comments, i just wanted to say IAM HAPPY IN ALGERIA , its just there have been alot of test alhamduillah and they all seem to come at once, my blogg is about the good and the bad , the reality i live daily , inshaAllah we will see some more positive post real soon,as i have not been blogging long in all fairness. Are you moving to Algeria sister?

Rainbow In The Grey Sky said...

i meant Algers Jamila?

Jamila said...

Essalam Alaikum Sis,

I will be in the South actually. My husband is from Metlili, about forty minutes from Ghardia.

I'm happy to hear that you are happy in Algeria, I was feeling from your posts that you weren't.

I should be there in a few weeks Insha'Allah. I'm from the USA.

Nice to meet you.

seekingtaqwa said...

you know it's good that you're showing both sides of how life is over there...I remember before I went to Algeria everyone ONLY told the good stuff and it came as a shock to find the reality of the situtation. And the feelings you have described sound so much like the way I was feeling...take courage dear sis...may allah ease your heart and help you to find comfort in your new home
xxx

Rainbow In The Grey Sky said...

aslamu alakum seeking taqwa

yes i too belive the real truth to be told not the butter up truth , be kind be tactful and resceptful but tell it as it is, there is alot of heartache here, anywhere , having tools like deen and sabr are keys , we can never be totally happy but we can try ..........its all about trying for the sake of Allah for me!!!!!

Anonymous said...

Assalamou alaikoum sis

I believe that sharing BOTH sides of the experience makes us ALL feel more human, and more likely to open up to each other... hopefully that type of support will help us with our transition to the new life we have chosen, and then we can all move forward....together as sisters, inshaAllah....

Much love

Umm of 3

Rainbow In The Grey Sky said...

Aslamu alakum umm of 3
welcome to my blog , marhban to you , yes inshaAllah we unite under the banner of love for the sake of Allah and this type of sharing helps us ameen.

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