Coz life is full of test.....................

some good , some easy , some hard and some unbearable but you know what knowing Allah makes them bearable and gives me the ability to strive and cope, alhamduilah for Islam and more so that i am a Muslimah for i could have been left.

I have had one test after another just lately alhamduilah , i am just juggling the balls of life , trying to stay a float, trying to stay sane and most of all content.

Today i had my Tajweed level one exam, i tell you its been no picnic these last months of learning how to read and recite quran, mashaAllah i achieved what i set out to achieve the ability to read mashaAllah so i am not fussed if i get the grade ot not but it would be nice.

My DH came back from Hajj and we are all elated but the down side he is back on nights and we don't see him, this is really getting me down, not a happy cookie i tell you, alhamduilah sabr and more sabr i guess.

I have been feeling a lot of loneliness just lately , i don't know whether its the weather or others having hardships too. I am finding the days are too short but the evenings are long and i mean long for someone who suffers from insomnia during stressful life periods. Perhaps the loneliness is a state of mind? Maybe i am missing my guest of weeks at least it was some adult company in the eveings mashaAllah.

She left me this bunch of flowers as i watch them slowly wilt over the weeks i remember her fondly. Don't forget she was a complete stranger before the day she moved in alhamduilah Allah made it easy as she was a lovely lady.

Kids are back to school also a new found change in our lives, they like it sofar mashaAllah no mega issues coming up as of yet, i am going to ask for a space for my son to pray his afternoon prayers so lets see what happens inshaAllah it will be all good.


I need to go see my mom soon, feels like neglect of the worse kind but hey when my life is falling apart i can't even conteplate tackling others yet.............
When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low, and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
when care is pressing you down a bit ~
Rest if you must, but don't quit.


Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when its seem afar,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit ~
It's when things go wrong you mustn't quit.


It's a NEW day today whic will bring new thoughs and feelings and ofcourse test alhamduilah.